Wait and still waiting
University application deadline has long been over. Seeing people receive acceptance letters one by one is definitely draining part of me. Don’t really know how to explain, but it’s quite unnerving and unsettling to know that your future is still hanging (in some way) while others are more or less assured of something after 2 years..
The wait seems to last forever. Every minute seems to be chipping away a part of hope….
Song: Just So You Know
Don’t know why, but suddenly I like this song 
…
…Or maybe, I do know 
…
…somehow…
…anyway, the lyrics:
Singer: Jesse McCartney
Song Title: Just So You Know
I shouldn’t love you but i want to
I just can’t turn away
I shouldn’t see you but i can’t move
I can’t look awayAnd i dont know how to be fine when i’m not
Cause i don’t know how to make the feelings stopJust so you know
This feelings taking control
Of me and i can’t help it
I wont sit around
I can’t let him win now
Though you should know
I’ve tried my best to let go of you
But i don’t want to
I just gotta say it all before you go
Just so you knowIt’s getting hard to
Be around you
Theres so much i can’t say
And do you want me to hide the feelings
And look awayAnd i don’t know how to be fine when i’m not
Cause i don’t know how to make the feelings stopJust so you know
This feelings taking control
Of me and i can’t help it
I wont sit around
I can’t let him win now
Though you should know
I’ve tried my best to let go of you
But i don’t want to
I just gotta say it all before you go
Just so you knowThis emptiness is killing me
I’m wondering why I’ve waited so long
Looking back i realize it was always there to be spoken
Now I’m waiting here
Been waiting hereJust so you know
This feelings takin control
Of me and i can’t help it
I wont sit around
I can’t let him win now
Though you should know
I’ve tryed my best to let go of you
But i don’t want to
I just gutta say it all before you go
Just so you know
Sigh. Probably JS is right on his previous comment.
I am getting too “emo”.
Only one word for myself: STOP
Mao: Political Policies and Cultural Revolution
Last week was on Mao’s economic policies. These week will be on his Political Policies and the Cultural Revolution…
Mao implemented political policies after the fall of Kuomintang to set up a socialist state along Maoist lines and consolidate CCP’s power.
In September 1954, the National People’s Congress was formed with Mao as the first President. CCP controlled elections, supplied all election candidates and monopolized membership of governing bodies. Opposition parties could not express themselves legally. The people’s courts imposed summary justice in which 2 million people died.
At the local level, CCP grouped the country’s 18 provinces into 6 regions governed by councils. At each level, there was…
The full essay can now be found at: http://fusedthought.com/archives/mao-political-policies-and-cultural-revolution/
Acting like a Zombie
Hectic week. The D-Day for my current role is coming up. Hope it will go fine…
Anyway, closer to the present, I am really “zombie-fied”. I have been awake since 250408, at 0500hours. So its been more than 40 hours, judging from the time now.
Yawns.
Mao: Economic Policies
Mao Zedong is an important figures in modern world history and till now is still quite a controversial figure…
So here’s a look at his economic policies…
From 1949, Mao implemented economic policies after coming into power to prove that Chinese communism would be a success in bringing about economic growth.
In agriculture, changes were made in 3 levels. First stage, land reform was introduced in 1950. It aimed to take land from land owners and redistribute them among poor peasants, and to increase produce to help industrial development in China. But as average holdings of land of peasants was less than 1 acre, mechanization and new farming methods were not utilized and China remained poor. Though peasant support increased, productivity level dropped.
Therefore, collectives were introduced to…
The full essay can now be found at: http://fusedthought.com/archives/mao-economic-policies/
So Hot
I’m hot.
Ok. I’m not narcissistic or egoistic. But I am really literally hot from fever… My fever burned yesterday to an all-time high of 38.3 degrees. At least now it has subsided… Thankfully.
First time I was sent back home from camp (on Thursday). Went to the doctor again. yesterday and ended up with almost 5 types of medication. Really feeling very numb.
Dreading the idea of going back to camp while on medication but no choice. Hopefully I can be exempted from the morning runs for a while. Don’t think I am up to it for the time being. Not to mention I got a Final Exam on Monday.
Well… hopefully I will have cool head (no pun intended) when I sit for the exam..
History of China: 1936-1949
This is the second essay about china. The first was about 1920-1936.
Read about History of China: 1920-1936…
Now for 1936 to 1949…
The CCP gained some support from Jiangxi, but it was insufficient for a revolution. Realizing that only a unified China could defeat the Japanese with the rise of nationalism, Mao offered to cease fighting with KMT and form a coalition. This gained him the support of nationalistic citizens. Chiang refused, demanding that Mao submit to him and allow his troops to be part of KMT. However, this changed after the Xian Incident.
On 7th December, Chiang returned to Xian, aiming to start the 6th suppression campaign. Zhang Xue Liang refused to participate and was dismissed from his post. Encouraged by the anti-Japanese demonstrations by the National Salvation League, Zhang arrested Chiang and announced a united front with CCP. Chiang was ironically saved by CCP, who felt dealing with him was easier than with Zhang. On December 15, after Zhou Enlai’s arrival, Chiang accepted the coalition. The Second United Front was formed in September 1937, officially ending the civil war and…
The full essay can now be found at: http://fusedthought.com/archives/history-of-china-1936-1949/
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